Ahh...New Year, I know it has been long since I last blogged. Been really busy lately, there is always work to be done, plies and stacks of sheets ... Sigh, really miss those times when I was in Anderson... such memories.

Shity day...Had a maths exam today, it was horrible. The last few days I told myself ‘’ it’s the final exam, and u need to push up your mark to at least 80’s%’’ (As I had dropped to 77% in my second term compared to 86% in term 1.) ‘’ and this is your last chance to push up the average’’ I studied 2 and a half days in a row for it, read the text book, took notes, did most of the revision questions, did all the previous test papers and revised every single worksheet that I did since the 1st day. Even on the day of exam, I went to school early to revise again and confronted my math teacher.

It was 8.20am so I went into the exam room 323. I was afraid, I had this weird feeling on the previous night, it can't be...I went through everything for maths !!!, i knew it must be the stress and nervousness, but i was wrong. At 8.30am EXAMS BEGIN, it was a two hours paper. I wrote my name and flipped to the 1st page...I look at the question and stunned for a moment, I’m not sure why can’t I understand, what in the world are u trying to say???? So I skipped and went to the next, useless, it was even harder!!!!

I’m like HEY I didn’t learn this...wth. %@#$@#%#@%@# . For the first time math questions seem to me like a foreign language, I panicked for a while. I paused and calm down, and tried to fill every single blanks with anything I could come out with, hoping that it would be correct.

Times up, I walked out of the class devastated, all I could think of is its over... although I know I can’t change or time travel back anymore but I could not stop blaming myself for not revising more thoroughly.






Well its over... there’s nothing I could do. colours are fading.

10:35 AM